The Rant/Venting thread

[Girl Anachronism]

I want my mother out of my life.
I'm tired of crying for her. I'm not going to do it anymore. Everytime I'm around her I feel horrible. I don't want to hurt her feelings but there is no way to push her away without hurting her. I stopped loving her a long time ago. I know she still loves me but she has some serious issues and I don't want be apart of her anymore. -____-'

:-/I feel so selfish and horrible.

Also,I've heard everyone has talents...But I don't....
Seriously,I can't draw, I can't write, I can't play an instrument or dance or sing.. I can't even let my feelings out right!! It's like I have no personality at all. I feel like a nobody.


Meh...-___-''

[Bonejangles rox]

I'm sure you can do something. I used to think I can't draw, but I started doing it anyway, and then I got pretty good if I do say so myself. If you just start getting into something, and continue doing it for a while, you'll get good. You're not talentless. There must be something in there

[sojuske]

Now I remember why I don't have many friends. It's because when they are in trouble or in pain, I try to help them and end up saying something that I didn't mean. I said "sounds like a plan" when my friend was saying that they should just let things flow and they were like "Sounds like I'm going to slap you for your constant irony" I don't mean to be ironic. I didn't mean to be mean. Just that I think that's what she should do, let things flow. And that's what popped out of my head to say. I didn't think it through as much as I aught to, so she left, angry at me.
And I hate it when people just get mad, when I can't reply back... I hate it sooo much..
Pinny said that, I realized what happened, what she thought I meant, and I can't help myself, I started crying cause I can't do anything about it. I might have ruined something with one stupid remark.
That's why I have not many friends I guess. Or I know that's why. I can't communicate with people, when I try I screw things up.

I guess this is also why my mom always calls me cold hearted and uncaring too... cause I can't get it across what I feel and that I do care.

[Emily]

I really hate it when my posts are deleted. I didn't even say anything that offensive on JDW and my post was deleted. I remember having 5919 posts yesterday, and I come on the board today and I have 5918. Why? Because I said we needed global announcements about the rules, etc to remind the newer members. I swear to God, this one mod there hates my guts. She's b*tch (pardon my language, but she is) and it isn't right how my post is deleted because I guess I went against her and her modness by saying that we needed annoucements. I guess I'm not allowed to say such a thing because I'm just a member... so what the f*ck do I know about running a board.

I hate her so much. It isn't jealous rage, it's just that I can see how terrible she is and I can't do anything to stop her.

[Moonlight]

sojuske said:

Now I remember why I don't have many friends. It's because when they are in trouble or in pain, I try to help them and end up saying something that I didn't mean. I said "sounds like a plan" when my friend was saying that they should just let things flow and they were like "Sounds like I'm going to slap you for your constant irony" I don't mean to be ironic. I didn't mean to be mean. Just that I think that's what she should do, let things flow. And that's what popped out of my head to say. I didn't think it through as much as I aught to, so she left, angry at me.
And I hate it when people just get mad, when I can't reply back... I hate it sooo much..
Pinny said that, I realized what happened, what she thought I meant, and I can't help myself, I started crying cause I can't do anything about it. I might have ruined something with one stupid remark.
That's why I have not many friends I guess. Or I know that's why. I can't communicate with people, when I try I screw things up.

I guess this is also why my mom always calls me cold hearted and uncaring too... cause I can't get it across what I feel and that I do care.

It's alright, Sharon. I don't have many friends either. Not counting here on these boards, of course ^^;; you have me. And Liz & Tara & Genine. We're all your friends ;D
And you don't seem ironic to me. *hugs*

Hey, Genine, I see you have a lot of problems with the Johnny Depp boards you're on. People can be such jerks, can't they? XP

[Emily]

Yes... yes, the can be... and this person I'm talking about is definitely one. It pisses me off because I should be a mod and she shouldn't. Like I said though, I'm not jealous... I'm just pissed that she deleted my post. I didn't even say anything that bad. If she wanted to, she could have just locked the thread... BUT NO! She's a terrible b*tch and I'm sure everyone feels the same. The only Depp board I'm not having issues with is Johnny's Angels. They're a sweet bunch, and I like being there.

And don't worry, Sharon.. Jem's right, we're your pals here.

[Moonlight]

I get kindof upset when people talk about wanting to see a specific person when I'm right there talking to them. Expecially when they say it over and over and over. "I really want to see [so and so...]"
Somehow it hurts my feelings. It makes me feel like I'm not an important friend to them or something. XP
This is probably something where people will tell me it's not a big deal and I should just forget about it. Or they'd just laugh at my feelings. I don't like it. I can't help being emotional and getting upset so easily.

[sojuske]

I've had that before Jem. You aren't alone.

Ok, because I can....
I HATE PETA.
Screw you peta. Do you know what the person who heads Peta said about pitbulls? She said they should be exterminated. She doesn't want or like pitbulls. She thinks they are "inherently" vicious and should be put down.
I hate hypocrites. Don't kill pigs for food, but kill pitbulls because they are vicious. Even the puppies.
You know why pitbulls can be vicious? Because we train them that way. Dalmatians are more vicious than pitbulls. Many other dogs are vicious, but we don't band them. Why? Cause Pitbulls are attractive to the media.
She wants to kill the pitbulls, like they are doing in canada, I want to go and force her to go to a place where they kill the cows, process the meat, andd make a burger. And make her eat an entire cow.
The -entire- cow. And then watch the pigs get slaughtered, and then be forced to kill them. Then have to watch the reactions of the pitbull owners whos dogs -she- thought were dangerous, after she endorsed their death.
Good going ingrid newkirk.
I have no tolerence for stupidity like that. None what-so-ever. Yah, she got attacked once and had scars. Hm. I wonder what stupid thing she did. Or, even better, what were the conditions of the attack.
But nooo. ARGh! Oh yes, make her wear fur for the rest of her life.

But, I hate PETA anyways. Because they are idiots and hypocrites. Some of what they do is all fine and good. Most. ugh, makes me want to hit them with a pan.
You hurt my medical facilities, I withhold your medication. Don't want animal testing or products in medications?
Well... for that hypocricy, die stupid vice-president of Peta. You condone the bombing of medical facilities that create medicines with animal products in it. You work as hard as you can to stop the use of animal testing and products in medicine.
And yet, you have diabetes. You survive because of insulin. Created from dogs. Ooh, good job there. What do you say to that?
"I need my life to help protect the lives of animals" is your excuse. Nah, we can survive without you. Go on, protect their lives, stop taking your insulin. Let's see how long you survive.

I think I'm getting a bit too angry by this... I'm shuddering and shaking and feeling rather violent...

So, any Peta people. If you are reading this, be glad I'm nowhere near you at the moment. I might very well kill and eat you.
And trust me, I'm not joking.

[Moonlight]

Why does my mom have to call me mean all the time? "You're so mean."
That's pretty much all she ever says to me anymore, and I don't know how to react without her yelling at me, whether I stay silent or not. Just a moment ago, for instance, she called my name. My voice is hoarse (from yelling at my dogs yesterday) and all I said was "What?"
An innocent "What."
And I try to tell her my voice is hoarse, and that I'm not sounding mean at all, unless I heard myself wrong, which I didn't. So she yells at me. I'm sick and tired of it. I didn't do anything, and she;s gotten me to the point where I cry.

[EbonyStar]

Here we go:

Where did it start? My sister is so sensitive, first of all. That's not something to rant about, but it's a main part of the reason. Surprisingly, this time, I'm not mad at my sister. It's really my mom (Rae, this took place literally two minutes after you left)

My friend, Rae, and I were on the computer, and my sister wanted to get on. We told her we'd be off in a little bit, because Rae was gonna straighten my hair (it looks fabulous, Rae). We were joking around and stuff, and instead of leaving and letting Rae and me get back to talking, my sister just stayed there. We asked her if she was gonna just wait and breathe down our necks until we were done (NOT spitefully), and she left when she realized we wanted her to. We were off about ten minutes later, and after Rae straightened my hair, my mom said something about how my sister was on the verge of tears because of "the way we treated her."

Okay, I've DEFINITELY treated my sister.......horribly, to put it bluntly, in the past (not, like, abuse or anything, so please don't freak out), but I don't do that anymore. And my mom doesn't seem to realize how overly sensitive my sister is, and how it isn't my fault.

Rae and I told my mom (like usual) that we didn't say anything mean to her, and we went back downstairs. After Rae's dad came to pick her up, my mom came downstairs and said my sister was really upset. I said immediately, without even asking about it, that Rae and I didn't do anything wrong or mean or snappy, because I knew there was no point trying to be superr-tactful and spend time trying to get my mom to see my side. She just doesn't get it. It's like she's completely forgotten how a teenage girl's view is differen than her mom's, especially when it concerns the youngest daughter
I tried to think of a way to explain it to my mom, but I remembered about a million past experiences where no matter how hard I tried, she never understood my point of view. I just turned back to the computer and muttered (in a tone that clearly stated I was tired and didn't want to argue with her tonight, a trick that always works with parents but constanly fails to work for me) "Nevermind, you don't listen anyway"
She said stuff about how I'm the one who never listens, and I could see her temper gradually rising. You know how someone who's mad will start talking, and with every word their nerves seem to believe that they have more and more right to be tense, so up goes their frustration and the emphasis on their words? Yeah, my mom's mastered that technique and she doesn't even realize it
She told me "Why can't you get it through your thick head that you're being fresh with her and making her upset?"
There are so many things wrong with that statement I hardly know where to begin. First of all, a mom who has (supposedly) a big enough heart to go out for a jog in the early morning and jump to the side on every other step to avoid stepping on a bunch of worms has NO business calling her daughter thick-headed. I said NOTHING mean enough to her to have to receive an insult like that.
I'm fresh. I've been a fresh little bastard (the dictionary defines the slang term as a "mean or disagreeable person." that's me alright)of a child ever since I could talk, and everyone knows it, or has experienced it some time or another. But I don't just go around hurting people. So I'm stubborn, run a knife through me why doncha? I didn't say anything that deserved an insult like that (I'm not as arrogant as I come off, but I know at least that I'm not thick-headed)

The funniest thing is, she basically called me hypocritical, but there she goes, doing it herself. Mrs "If you're mad at your sister, you don't need to show it and snap at her"
Her secret identity? Mrs "Get it through your thick head!"

She never listens. I have so many examples, and whenever I try and tell her that, she COMPLETELY misinterprets what I say and she says "So this is what it's all about? I broke a promise? I forgot to get you a movie? Stop living in the past, Tara. We're not talking about then, we're talking about now, and that situation has nothing to do with this one."
Okay, yeah, usually i agree with that logic, but NOT NOW. She doesn't GET IT. She always says I'm not listening, but here's what I got out of what she told me. It isn't that difficult to figure out. My sister's overly-sensitive (except my mom doesn't realize that part). She takes offense and hurt at anything even slightly snappy you say, and she gets upset when the kids in her class are yelling and shouting and--as I figure--having fun and don't listen to her. She just can't handle.....well, the world, basically. She's still wicked innocent and young and, if I may be so blunt (as I always am), ignorant. Heh, she's the ignorance and I'm the arrogance. I personally like my side better.

Anyway, my mom and sister's side is that my sister got upset about what Rae and I said. She's overly-sensitive, and there's no way I can be myself and keep her from being upset. Don't get me wrong, if someone else is making her upset, I'll be on them and ripping out their throat in a heartbeat with my bare hands, but when her own sister can' crack a joke or just be a bit snappy now and then.......it's agitating to live with. My nerves are pretty tough, but this grates on them like sandpaper on skin.

My side.......well, mom refuses to see it, so what's the point?

I've tried everything I can think of to get her to just shut up for a second and listen to me, but nothing's worked so far. I just want her, for one second, to stop taking my sister's side. No, I don't want her to take my side instead. I just want her to stop going with the first story she hears, which is always my sister's, because she always gets upset. Honestly, if someone could mail me a power drill so I could punch a hole or two in my head, I'll love you forever

[Liz]

Tara, I know EXACTLY what you mean. My little sister is SUPER-sensitive and every time I do one little thing to her like that, she always cries to my mom who ALWAYS takes her side & gives me crap for it. Pisses me off..

[EbonyStar]

beetlebabe said:

Tara, I know EXACTLY what you mean. My little sister is SUPER-sensitive and every time I do one little thing to her like that, she always cries to my mom who ALWAYS takes her side & gives me crap for it. Pisses me off..

When my mom gets like this, I can't stand her. Honestly, I wish she'd drop off the face of the earth til she's outta her mood

And she's not gonna apologize for real about insulting me. I'll still ask for an apology, because I'm stupidly fearless like that. I know I'm capable of outsmarting her and beating her in a debate, despite her businesslikeness (wtf?) and public speakign skills. I could easily win the argument if she'd shut the hell up for two minutes and listen to me

"Your little sister's on the verge of tears!"

Ha. I beat her to it, then

[sojuske]

I can't help you with the power drill... And there is no way I will.
And I know this won't help, but I'm trying to see it in a vareity of ways and the first thing I saw was.
""Nevermind, you don't listen anyway""
Never say that to a parent. Ever. I said that to my mom a few times once. I said "I really don't care" a few times to my mom. And I get responses like you do. You get called thick-headed, I get called cruel and coldhearted. (which hurts to high heaven as you don't believe)
But, if parents can get away with it, children can't. We're younger, they don't listen to us. Trying to get our side of the picture is improbably at best. Especially when a younger sibling is in the way.
My brother, always wants to play with me. He'll get upset really easily, and although he's now 14, he still acts younger. If I don't play with him, if I'm on the computer talking to you guys, he will come and annoy me. And I'll get in trouble for not playing with him whenever he wants. He can hit me hard, and if I lock him out of my room after that, my parents listen to him, not to me. Because I'm older and should know better.
So, I'm sorry this happened. I know how you feel, or at least have gone through some very similar things. But, all I can do is say what I have and perhaps give some advice.
Mainly, I would be wary of saying "you never listen to me anyhow" because then, well, at least my parents, start getting really angry and hurtful and sometimes really really bad things happen. *hugs again and takes all the sharp implements away from you*

[EbonyStar]

I can't help you with the power drill... And there is no way I will.

I appreciate that ^.^;;;

""Nevermind, you don't listen anyway""
Never say that to a parent. Ever.

She never seems to pick up on it when I do say it, because, astoundingly, she really doesn't listen

Not really, but I had to say it
I've told her that she doesn't listen dozens of times, and it hasn't made an impact yet. It's made her angrier, which would be comical if she didn't make me cry (something I hate her for being able to do), but it hasn't had an impact

I get called cruel and coldhearted. (which hurts to high heaven as you don't believe)

Trust me, I know how it feels to be called "cruel" and "fresh" and "heartless" even. My mom called me heartless once. Apparently she was wrong, cause I felt it hurt that night. Like I seriously got an ache where my heart is supposed to be (supposed to be? I don't think that's the best way to word it.....)

Mainly, I would be wary of saying "you never listen to me anyhow" because then, well, at least my parents, start getting really angry and hurtful and sometimes really really bad things happen.

My parents do that to. Well my mom, anyway cause my dad's a good listener, despite what my mom says about him and his listening skills
She gets angry and she gets hurtful, and there are so many things I can point out about that I don't know where to start, which is why, after I've said that much, that she doesn't listen, I don't do anything. I let her ramble and single-handedly prove my point, that she doesn't listen. Now if only she'd realize it.......

*hugs again and takes all the sharp implements away from you*

*hugs* Thank you, Sharon

[A Tear to Shed]

Um, I'd like to talk to you Tara. Like, really talk to you. In person. Because I can't even begin to explain how I feel right now.